Happy Valentine’s Day/Black Hearts’ Day/Singles’ Awareness Day…
I’m not going to lie, I was pretty depressed yesterday.
It’s hard not to be when you don’t have a “Valentine.”
And it’s not that I’m jealous of those who aren’t single, and it’s not even that I think people are rubbing it in.
It’s that I know that the person meant to be my significant other has a lot of standards to hit! So it’s a little frustrating that so many men just don’t… cut it.
But then, that’s me trying to do MY will instead of GOD’S will again…
It’s actually quite amazing, because after being depressed all day, right after my PSR class last night, I just got this total inspiration to be productive and be on top of things and just be… happy. So I conquered my desk at work, plowing through a covering of literally at least 2 inches of paper EVERYWHERE. Granted, it took me four hours to do so, and I left the church at a little before midnight, but it felt GREAT.
Then I had the energy to clean a whole lot at the apartment this morning too!
And I was thinking about this sudden change of mood, and you know what? It’s a prayer answered. I asked Jesus to be with me… and then He just was.
I have this prayer card posted on my cabinet at work — we made them for the Young Adults this summer, and it’s just so great. It has JPII on one side, and this quote on the back, from his address at World Youth Day 2000 (I WAS THERE!). It just sums up exactly what I was feeling and what just happened.
Funny… almost makes you believe in God… 
It is Jesus in fact that you seek when you dream of happiness, he is waiting for you when nothing else you find satisfies you; he is the beauty to which you are so attracted; it is he who provokes you with that thirst for fulness that will not let you settle for compromise; it is he who urges you to shed the masks of a false life; it is he who reads in your hearts your most genuine choices, the choices that others try to stifle. It is Jesus who stirs in you the desire to do something great with your lives, the will to follow an ideal, the refusal to allow yourselves to be grounded down by mediocrity, the courage to commit yourselves humbly and patiently to improving yourselves and society, making the world more human and more fraternal.
Okay, God, I hear you.
By Reader